Being a mom to an amazing, absolutley insane and adorable little boy has been the highlight of my life thus far. He can make me smile when nothing is going my way. He can drive me so crazy and then just flash those snaggle teeth and make my heart melt. He has turned me into a person I never imagined I could be. A mom. I have transformed from an organized, young, crazy, cool young adult, to a full fledged working mother who sings "The Itsy Bitsy Spider" and points to every car on the high way. I call him names like "my little chunky do" and my "Bubby." Don't ask where I got either of those names...I wouldn't be able to tell you.
Through this almost 16 month journey of having a living creature, that I made and carried, on this earth, I have struggled to not lose myself while becoming a mom. I don't want to judge anyone's parenting tactics or family dynamics but I am trying so hard to continue and keep my friendships strong, my relationship young, and myself sane. The latter is probably the hardest!
My days are non-stop, my nights are chaotic and restless, and my child is sometimes the kid at the park with banana in his hair and blueberry stains on his shirt. I can't do it all and if the worst thing about my day is that I didn't have time to put the dishes in the dishwasher or I didn't feel like fighting my toddler to change his shirt, who fucking cares? It is VERY hard for me to relax and let little things go but I have slowly come to find that in order to maintain myself and keep the Michelle I used to know, I need to let the Mommy in me relax and not try to keep up with the craft making, pinterest pinning, recipe following "super" moms. Maybe I cuss too much, sometimes I might drink too much wine, and when the weather is nice, my child spends way too much time in a running stroller.
Please let me know you struggle as much as I do to be a great Mom but not lose yourself in the process..?!?!
