It is very hard for me to admit when I am not doing something well. I strive to be a perfectionist and have am very OCD about a lot of things. My husband "jokes" that I don't know how to relax but in reality, he is correct. When I am sitting on the couch, I am thinking about other things I could be doing (dishes, laundry, exercising, reading, etc). Life in itself is pretty busy for me these days but this crazy quality makes it even worse. As I said in my last post, I am becoming HORRIBLE at keeping up with this blog and am contemplating whether or not it is something I am going to continue. I truly do love writing and sharing but I don't want it to be something I have to do, but something I want to do. So, in the effort to make somewhat of an excuse for my lowsy blogging updates lately, here is a quick outline of my daily life. Once you see this, you will see that I am not just a crazy person, I am actually very busy these days.
5:40am: Alarm goes off
5:55am: Out the door to run 4-6 miles and sometimes a track interval workout
7:10am: Home just in time for the husband to gulp down a bowl of cereal before he heads off to work
7:15-8:15am: Get myself showered, dressed, make up face, fed, son dressed, fed, diaper changed
8:15-9:30am: Babysitter drop off and then commute an hour to our nation's capital for work. This hour usually includes conference calls, catch up calls with clients and co-workers, or serious jam sessions
9:30am-4:30pm: visit clients, attend meetings, lunches, cold call, put through orders, pretty much talk on the phone or work on the blackberry and laptop all day
4:30-5:30pm: Babysitter pickup and commute home
6:00pm-8:00pm - Dinner time, play time, bath time, Brody bed time
8:00pm-10:00pm - some nights I have another hour or so of work to do on the computer. Then it's time to prep the diaper bag, pack lunches, chug a glass of wine, possibly get some QT in with the hubby, and then I'm off to bed.
I just got exhausted writing that. Of course, every day is not exactly the same but you get the idea. To add fuel to fire, we have been out of town nearly every other weekend attending weddings of friends. My poor son has been all over the place (thank god he won't remember how many weekends we had to leave him during his first 12 months!). I am constantly talking about needing "me" time but am slowing starting to realize that this so called "me" time is not something that most moms get on a regular basis. So...when you pull up my blog and see that I am MAYBE writing once a week, I consider that an accomplishment! I have seriously thought about soliciting my friends to help make over my blog and remind me to write. I know that my life is not very different from every mom out there, I am just having a hard time making time for everything, including my little blog that is in desperate need for some TLC.
In about two weeks, my little family is off to the beach and I absolutley cannot wait. This mommy needs some serious sun, sand, and alcohol.
I totally know what you mean about 'me' time.... I'm already away from Danny so much for work and other commitments that the thought of taking more time away just for 'me' is too hard... and feels selfish... but I NEED SOME!
ReplyDeleteDon't stop the blog Mich! The best thing about it is that it's not something you HAVE to do. If you don't have time, then don't worry! Just write when you do have time. If that's only once a week, then it's only once a week, or once a month or whatever! But keep those creative juices flowing, and when you can get some "Me" time in there, you should! Love ya.
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